From: ssolomon@awinc.com (Steve Solomon) Newsgroups: alt.clearing.technology Subject: Is Clearing Possible? A Meditation. Date: 14 Apr 1995 07:19:32 GMT I am a certified Scientology clear. Number 6030 to be precise, awarded in 1977, May, I believe. Perhaps I should say I *was* a clear. I went clear after a lengthy spell of steady work; nine months of methodical toil. "Digging the ditch," L. Ron Hubbard called it. One dug and dug until there was no more, you ran out of dirt to dig out. Then, you were supposed to go clear, without any more reactive mind. When I finished digging I *knew* I was clear. I should not say "thought I was clear" because the main experience of clearness was that there remained in my universe, *no thought.* I existed in a state of perfect inner silence. And I frequently found myself outside my body. Not that I was incapable of thought. If I wanted to think I could think and there would be thoughts as long as I was creating thoughts, but the moment I ceased creation of thought, there was none. This state of clearness lasted nearly two years, with a few brief spells of profound unhappiness while I would become obsessed with some emotion (usually caused by my connection with the Church of Scientology). Then, upset, thought returned almost automatically and I would grind on some thoughts almost uncontrollably. So clearness is something like, "be still and know." That state of inner silence reminds me of a rap of Hubbards in which he explains that the apparent cycle of action--create, survive, destroy--is only an apparency, an illusion. The real cycle of action is--create, create create create, no create, nothing. In other words, things exist only because they are being continuously created and the moment their creation ceases, the existence ceases. There is no persistence without continuous creation. When I went clear I ceased compulsively creating thought (most of the time) so there was none (most of the time). This silence I lived in was most instructive. I KNEW many things by merely looking at them. Or by concentrating on them. I still can much of the time. However, I gradually stopped being this clear and the state is these days more occasional than constant. These days the return of inner silence is remarkable in its unusualness. Now, I did not falsely attest to being "clear" back in 1977. And it is not the chiching of godzillians of little body-entities attached to my corpus that is occupying my mental space, as the OTIII story would propose. Herein lies a very interesting aspect of the origins and development of Scientology processing and perhaps the root-trap that led LRH to the kind of unsanity that characterized his last 15 (plus or minus) years. LRH started out his guru career by promising the state of clear to anyone who would walk over his bridge. But his 1950 Dianetic clears did not stay clear. His T-80 clears did not stay clear. Neither did his T-88 clears of 1952, nor did his 88008 clears, nor those processed by the Creation of Human Ability in the mid-50s. Nor did . . . . . It seemed no matter what approach he tried, he could blow out a person, make them feel great for a while, but then, the old insidious bank would come back. But Hubbard promised clearing as an absolute state. And garnered an audience from that promise. And became addicted to having that audience. His researches through the 60s that led to making the clearing materials confidential; his discovery that even confidentially-cleared clears didn't stay clear led to the demand that he find yet another absolute clearing process. And thus the OTIII myth. What arrogance! I have no personal handle on exactly how long this universe has existed and how long I've been in it. Certainly it has been long. My fairly connected recall runs back about 25,000 years. You might call that the most recent goals-problem series. Beyond that I am aware of only fragments. Interesting fragments, but fragments, no less. Godzillions of fragments. Once, freed of the control of the Church of Scientology, (1978) I sat in a quite room and looked at my own mind and the energy patterns surrounding me and began to intentionally blow out the energy bands that seemed to be encircling my body. These bands were layered and went out for quite a few meters in all directions. They were covered with/made up of/ incidents and pictures. So, just for fun, I blew them up wholesale. But there is no end to this mental mass. It is virtually as endless as my whole track. The arrogance to think that in any one lifetime, especialy the arrogance to think that in a few short years of concentrated effort I could undo the compulsive/compelled creations of godzillenia! No, clearing is not an absolute state. It is a process. Clearing is swimming upstream into clearer waters in a universe of beings that are floating downstream. The longer one makes the effort and swims against the current the clearer one gets. But CLEAR? Do absolutes exists in this Universe? Brings to mind the advice of the Buddah. He said to get "clear" one had to merely follow the seven fold path. Or, one had to refrain from committing overts and avoid actions that one would later regret. This simple action would eventually lead one off the wheel of karma. Why? Because regrets are handled by forgets. To get better one must begin each lifetime with a memory of the last one(s). As one gains certainty of self they are less identified by threats and worries because they know with increasing certainty that nothing can harm them (as a spirit). If we regret nothing we need to forget nothing. As we get out of the habit of forgetfulness of prior existences, we begin to Know what we are. Obviously, this process does not happen all at once. And the hard part is forming a sufficiently strong resolve that one does not forget with the stress of death, birth and what comes in between. I've been working on it since about 1750. I was born this lifetime with considerable memory of my prior life. As I reflect on it, this has done me more (or certainly as much) good than Scientology clearing. Perhaps I couldn't have had the Clearing without this preparation. -- Steve Solomon ssolomon@awinc.com