Newsgroups: alt.religion.scientology Date: Fri, 10 Feb 1995 00:23:31 -0500 From: Kim Baker Subject: Wins after leaving the CoS One of the things I *never* do is jump on Scientologists who post their own wins. I feel that it is their right to do that. By the same token, I feel it is my right to post my "wins" since leaving the CoS. I read Arnie's post on the same theme, and it inspired me to put down my own gains. Since I have left the CoS, I have had to deal with things, make value judgements on certain issues that I never saw the like of when I was in the CoS. The trauma, the pain, the anger was a part of the process of leaving, but together with that was the sense of liberation, the assumption of responsibility for my own spirituality, and that I no longer had to hold back my spirituality. The pace and intensity of my life has increased. I have many new (non Scientologist) friends, and at work, I have been just succeeding and succeeding - have just managed, with a small team of colleagues, to institute major positive managerial changes in an organisation that was rigidly heirarchical - the staff are happy and empowered, and it is wonderful to watch. :) I feel totally in control of my life, I feel *much* stronger, as a person, at having come through the experience I just have, in tact. I am happy, I laugh a lot, I enjoy life, and live it to the full. This happiness has had an impact on my dealings with people as well. My long-dormant artistic creativity has rejuvenated, and I am creating collages, drawings, etc, at a rate of knots! I am studying International Politics, part time, and I have resumed writing a book that I started two years ago (fiction - fanatsy), with enthusiasm! My personal indicator of what shape I am in is my creativity - and it is *alive*!! More alive than it's ever been! :) Make no mistake, because of my stand against the Church, I still have some rough times - but that is life. Dealing with an organisation like this makes one very strong. I have had more "case gain" than I *ever* had in the Church - I have confronted and worked through parts of myself that I never even came *close* to, and I have dealt with them myself, or, occasionally, with a little help from some friends. And those are the gains I've had since I've been out of the CoS (3 and a half months now). Kim Baker